{"id":5791,"date":"2012-10-22T14:09:55","date_gmt":"2012-10-22T21:09:55","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/alannarisse.com\/blog\/?p=5791"},"modified":"2012-10-22T14:10:41","modified_gmt":"2012-10-22T21:10:41","slug":"bad-artist","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/bad-artist\/","title":{"rendered":"Bad Artist"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>As I was staring at this thing, going &#8220;bleck, what is this mess?&#8221; a scarey thought popped into my head. What if I&#8217;m a terrible artist? What if I lack the ability to make good choices in my work> What if I don&#8217;t deserve to go to grad school? What if I&#8217;m a hack? What if, no matter how much effort I put into it, all I come up with for this February deadline is complete and utter crap? Thoughts like this hadn&#8217;t occurred to me in quite a while. I&#8217;m not sure I should continue entertaining this thought. I think I&#8217;ll just keep trying to move forward and hope something comes to fruition by February. Otherwise&#8230; shit, there is no otherwise. I have no choice. Any other option is incomprehensible to me right now.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/alannarisse.com\/blog\/bad-artist\/vertrees02\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-5792\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/vertrees02.jpg\" alt=\"\" title=\"vertrees02\" width=\"483\" height=\"908\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-5792\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>As I was staring at this thing, going &#8220;bleck, what is this mess?&#8221; a scarey thought popped into my head. What if I&#8217;m a terrible artist? What if I lack the ability to make good choices in my work> What if I don&#8217;t deserve to go to grad school? What if I&#8217;m a hack? What [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5791","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5791","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5791"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5791\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5795,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5791\/revisions\/5795"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5791"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5791"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5791"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}