{"id":8304,"date":"2017-04-19T10:34:13","date_gmt":"2017-04-19T17:34:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/alannarisse.com\/blog\/?p=8304"},"modified":"2017-10-10T09:39:04","modified_gmt":"2017-10-10T16:39:04","slug":"backpacking-analogy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/backpacking-analogy\/","title":{"rendered":"Backpacking analogy"},"content":{"rendered":"

I just had a thought that my working and studying and interviewing and all the things I’m doing to get back into tech is a lot like a really long backpacking trip through steep mountain passes. I think I\u00a0am at the crest of whatever climb I\u00a0am on, only to discover that the top of your hill leads to another, steeper hill. I am\u00a0still making the miles, some days slowly, some days at a break-neck pace, but I am\u00a0going forward. \u00a0Sometimes I have to stop and rest. Sometimes I have to backtrack to get water. Sometimes I have to take a day off to rest in a beautiful little canyon with a magical swimming hole to remind myself this is all worth it. Some days I yell “FUUUCCCCKKK MEEEE!” and I don’t stop no matter what the pain. I’m lonely, I’m scared, I’m so very tired. I am also proud of myself. I am also stronger than I’ve felt in a while. I am also learning so much and growing so much. Pretty much every day, no matter what kind of day it is, I get to have a moment where I say “yes! goddamnit, yes!”<\/p>\n

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I get to be an artist and a programmer. I get to be a mother and have a career. I choose both. It’s a juggle and I choose it. I choo choo choose it.<\/p>\n

My life is a windy path for sure, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. OK well, I should probably be worshipped and adored more than I am, but fine, whatever. I can live with it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I just had a thought that my working and studying and interviewing and all the things I’m doing to get back into tech is a lot like a really long backpacking trip through steep mountain passes. I think I\u00a0am at the crest of whatever climb I\u00a0am on, only to discover that the top of your […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-8304","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8304","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8304"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8304\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8326,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8304\/revisions\/8326"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8304"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8304"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8304"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}