{"id":8871,"date":"2019-11-01T10:14:10","date_gmt":"2019-11-01T17:14:10","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/alannarisse.com\/blog\/?p=8871"},"modified":"2019-11-22T12:27:20","modified_gmt":"2019-11-22T19:27:20","slug":"gratitude-month-day-one","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/gratitude-month-day-one\/","title":{"rendered":"Gratitude &#8211; Asshole"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Hey, what if I posted about gratitude in November every day? Let&#8217;s try it out.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I am incredibly grateful that my husband actually heard me this year tell him that every holiday season he turns into an asshole. I say if every year, very matter of factly, because it&#8217;s been true, I&#8217;ve learned to expect it, but nothing has ever changed in many years to stop him from being an asshole, so it&#8217;s more like a gentle, hey, I recognize you turn into an asshole this time every year and I wish you&#8217;d try to change that. I never expect him to. But this year, he did! Hopefully for the best for everyone involved. I hope he has a happier holiday this year. I&#8217;m grateful at the idea that might be true.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I&#8217;m grateful that my husband got off work early to come home and help with Halloween festivities. He didn&#8217;t go trick or treating, but he loves giving out candy. So he stayed home and I went out looking for our kid, talked to neighbors, and walked the dogs around. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I&#8217;m grateful that I&#8217;ve stepped down from one of my positions at my job. Today is the last day. I was spread too thin and it was the most troublesome position out of the three\/four that I have there. So hurray for a little more focus on the things I love about my job!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I&#8217;m grateful that my kid is old enough to start trick or treating a little more independently and that she is so confident.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I&#8217;m grateful that about a month ago, I was an asshole and I recognized it. I was an asshole because I made assumptions about a person that were wrong and I said things that I though were self deprecating, that we were somehow both being self deprecating together. But there&#8217;s no such thing as co-deprecating, it&#8217;s just called being a dick. I&#8217;m grateful that I know that and will hopefully not ever do it again. I&#8217;m so devastated that I negatively affected this person.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I&#8217;m grateful that several months ago I made other assumptions about a friend and after months of heartache, because I&#8217;d broken things beyond repair, that I remembered, oh, I&#8217;m an adult and I can occasionally screw up, and maybe it doesn&#8217;t mean things have to be broken forever. So I held out an olive branch a week ago. And I don&#8217;t know what&#8217;ll happen from it, but I&#8217;m thankful that I was brave enough to swallow by pride and try. And that I can say &#8220;I fucked up and I&#8217;m sorry.&#8221;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I&#8217;m thankful for friends.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Hey, what if I posted about gratitude in November every day? Let&#8217;s try it out. I am incredibly grateful that my husband actually heard me this year tell him that every holiday season he turns into an asshole. I say if every year, very matter of factly, because it&#8217;s been true, I&#8217;ve learned to expect [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-8871","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8871","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8871"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8871\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8880,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8871\/revisions\/8880"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8871"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8871"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.alannarisse.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8871"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}