As I was staring at this thing, going “bleck, what is this mess?” a scarey thought popped into my head. What if I’m a terrible artist? What if I lack the ability to make good choices in my work> What if I don’t deserve to go to grad school? What if I’m a hack? What if, no matter how much effort I put into it, all I come up with for this February deadline is complete and utter crap? Thoughts like this hadn’t occurred to me in quite a while. I’m not sure I should continue entertaining this thought. I think I’ll just keep trying to move forward and hope something comes to fruition by February. Otherwise… shit, there is no otherwise. I have no choice. Any other option is incomprehensible to me right now.
