We got a new fridge. To you suburbanites, it may not seem all that exciting, but to us, it is heaven. We got a bottom freezer, french door fridge, a big one. We now have three produce drawers AND a deli drawer. We can put bottles of wine in the fridge upright. We can open…

According to BabyCenter.com, my uterus is the size of a soccer ball right now and my baby is the size of an ear of corn. As Scott says: “Amaizing!” I am incredibly physically tired at night. Most nights it seems I have to struggle just to get to bed. But every day I wake up…

I’ve started coveting a BOB Revolution stroller. I think about it far too much. I keep finding myself reading reviews or looking at product specs. It seems perfect to me. You can get an adaptor for a car seat for tiny ones, The front wheel can be locked or unlocked, it can be used as…

Last night at dinner we started talking finance. The moment I think about us being on one income, I start to panic and I start thinking of ways to make money, all of them involving precisely what I want to get away from. He stopped me. He said I needed to first make room for…

I stared blindly at my belly last night waiting to see if I actually see my baby’s kicks from the outside and sure enough, the big kicks are visible to the outside world. This is getting interesting. I’m going on a little trip to see a friend in three weeks. It’s weird to think about…

The maternity leave conversation came up today. So I had to tell them I don’t have plans to return. I want to take a nice long maternity leave and attempt to actually use my $60k degree for something. My last day will be somewhere around July 13th. For my last build release there will be…

I lost weight this week. Two pounds. This news would usually make me ecstatic but as I’m pregnant and should be gaining weight, not loosing it, this is bad news. It means I’ve technically lost 3 pounds. Since I cut out simple carbs and sugar, it’s been challenging to get enough calories, try as I…

Fed up with not making art Fed up with watching my friend’s art careers blossom while I barely seem to have to time to shower, let alone put mark on paper Fed up with unrewarding jobs Fed up with never spending time with friend Fed up with not making new friends Fed up with having…

Tom felt the baby move for the first time last night. She kicked hard for him several times. It was a trip.

I’m kicked constantly now. Tom still can’t feel it, which sucks, but I bet he will any day now. My baby weights about the same as a mango, says BabyCenter.com. My belly is big, getting bigger every day. Such a trip. I get weirded out when strangers seem surprised when I tell them I’m pregnant.…

I want to talk about my family. Can I do that? Is it safe now? My mom died about a month ago. In the middle of our closing on the house. I didn’t want to be sad. There has been so much sadness surrounding my mother, I just didn’t want to go there at all.…

I’m feeling much better. I had enough energy to empty out a couple more boxes from my office yesterday. We had a very lovely dinner at Veritable Quandary in Portland right on the river. Very yummy food and nice place. I had chicken and black eyed peas, yum. We skipped dessert but I had an…

I started crying yesterday on and off, by bedtime, I was just crying me a whole goddamn river. Not for any one thing, just from being sad. I woke up this morning and the crying continued. It showed no signs of stopping so I called in sick to work, washed off my face and got…

We brought Mississippi home exactly one year ago today. We’ve been through a whole lot, the three of us. She is the sweetest, cutest little monster on the planet and I am so glad she’s part of our family now. Tonight we are going to give her a special chicken dinner. She’s being extra snuggly…

I’m really sad today because we went to our monthly midwife appointment and my glucose levels were a little high. I know how to fix it, I’m not scared about that, it’s just that I’m sad I have to say goodbye to all the deliciousness out there. No more Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches, no…