It’s been a strange week. I plunged head-long into my past and saturated my life and thoughts with memories. I think it was good for me, like a good therapy session, but now I’m feeling like re-entering the real world. I’ve been pretty lazy lately. Well, Tom would argue that my idea of lazy is not the same as most people, but I feel it. I haven’t been inspired to jump through any hoops, but I also can’t stand not having a solid path before me. There are no deadlines, no urgent shows or opportunity I need to work for. It’s just me and my time. I feel a little like I’m floating, and it’s kind of uncomfortable. So I need a solid game plan. Something to strive for. That’s my goal for today, to figure out what it is I need to get accomplished in the next couple months. Some ideas:
- Art: Make some prints and drawings, something fast and illustrative, to get out of this “going nowhere” feeling that can happen so often with painting when I’m not sure of my direction.
- Music: write, write, write lyrics til I am blue in the face and I get over this fear of failure
- Body: God, I feel awful, I need some exercise. Maybe I can walk home from work 1 or 2 days a week.
- Nature: The city is making me nuts, need some dirt and grass.
OK, get going, you lazy bum… Oh wait, I’m moonlighting right now. That’s gonna make it hard to add more stuff to my life.